oh how i wonder

i have a lot of time on my commute to work now. it takes about 40 minutes both ways on my bike so i have a lot of time to think, pray, be silent, spit out bugs...you know the usual stuff you do on the commute to work. :) today i was wondering a few things that just made me think and i wonder if God put them on my heart to think about. some of these are from this morning and some are just what i am thinking about as i write this.

first, do i not dream enough or allow myself to dream dreams?

second, am i living just for the sake of living or am i really living life to the fullest in the way i am created for?

third, stemming off of that, which i think about so many times, is what am i created for? how does God want to use me, what are my gifts, and how can i play a part in His story?

fourth, so much of me struggles to plan out my life vs. live in the moment as it is.

fifth, my brokenness, my flaws, my sin, and grace.

i posted on the eugene team's blog that my brain was over loaded. it really is. i have a lot of work stuff on my mind and a lot of those statements up above on my mind. sheesh, life is back into full swing for me. i absolutely love having a million things to do again, but it's almost like i have to relearn to balance my life out in order to make myself sane.

i think it's good that i am slowly learning more and more about what i need. maybe this comes with age and more life experience? i don't know. so i am going to set aside some time somewhere in my busy schedule again to allow myself to be able to think, process, reflect, and listen a little bit more. It's the perfect time of the year for this. a good cup of coffee/tea, book, journal, and stillness is all i need. oh how i heart fall!

for now, i know i want to all space to wonder a little more.

peace, friends. :)